Life is one big potassium joke - K?

^ Science nerds (or fellow potassium deprived friends!) will understand that 'K' reference in the title of this post.

Basically this post is just going to be me banging on about lack of potassium and the terror that comes with it.

I am tired. So. So. Tired. Exhausted, actually. Mentally and physically exhausted.
It starts with thirst, such extreme thirst that you fear you may well drink the entire country out of its water supply. But then you're sick, or it drains via your Venting PEG, which then further depletes your potassium. You clamp off your Venting PEG but then that makes you sick, too. Then all of a sudden your head feels like it's swimming in all of the water that you've been drinking. It's as if your head is under water and you're swimming in the depths of the ocean with that crushing pain that feels like your head and face are being crushed in a vice. So much pressure and so little tolerance to it. Then you get the tingling sensation like the onset of pins and needles. Everywhere. And I mean everywhere. Your whole body feels like it's vibrating and the nausea overwhelms you. Then it cramps. Everything cramps and spasms. Your thumbs fold in to your palms, your fingers fold in to one another, your limbs fold in to the spasming muscles and the bones feel like they too are being crushed by the vice that's taken over your skull. Your heart starts skipping and you feel faint as it does so. You stand and before you know it your body has dragged you back down the place you tried to stand from as your blood pressure goes havoc and your oxygen saturation drops. Your heart is going too fast and then it's going too slow and then all of a sudden it stops. It stops and you fall unconscious. Your chest is aching, stabbing, hurting and everything goes black as the pain stiffens your neck and your jaw. And your eyes roll to the back of your head.

Heart attack, they said. Again and again and again. So they replace your potassium, albeit very very carefully so as not to overwhelm your system. And you feel better, somewhat.

Until next time, a week or so later, when it all happens again. Over and over and over again. The vice like crushing sensation persists and the pain and the cramps and the nausea and the fainting and all of the above mentioned becomes all that you can think about.

"Another heart attack" they said. "Cardiac arrest" they say. "Get the defibrillators" they shout.

V1-3 S&T Wave Changes with Ventricular Ectopics with bi/tri-gemini  and Atrial fibrillation. Heart can't cope. 30% normal function.

And eventually, you're just waiting for the big one.